why, or why not

To get my happiness
I had done everything,
But had done nothing
to be blamed and accused of.
The sound of footsteps became
louder everyday,
Then I noticed the fact
there was no time.
I was a believer in life
to be myself always,
And was asking whether
I would be alive.
Give me a reason why not
to adopt in this way,
or judge me to be guilty
too many incurable sins.
Tell me why, or why not.
Complaining way too much,
maybe I overlooked something
fatal for me
The whole world was
at a complete stand still,
and I was in fetters,
at the mercy of the mob.
The silent warning became
louder every day.
Then I kept pretending
not to hear.
Its meaning had been in the eyes
of beholder all along.
It had grown dark before
I found a sign.
"Among the nonsense tragedies,
what on earth you are looking for?
You only have to be honest to
yourself and you own fate."
Tell me why, or why not.
Complaining way too much,
maybe I overlooked something
fatal for me
There is nobody who knows
there will be nobody
Except for me,
all the world has gone mad.
So what is forgiveness
you are willing to withhold?
What is the well-being
you are willing to make?
Now what? So what?
Don't you come interrupt me,
oh please,while I am interrupting myself.
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